[Envy had done okay during the circus weekend. He'd managed to wear himself out enough during the shows to be able to just collapse in bed at the end of the day and fall asleep without thinking or dreaming.]
[But now the circus is over. The night is too quiet, and his room especially feels like both the emptiest place in the world and so full of the ghosts of memories that Envy can't stand it. He'd waved off the offers to keep him company, sure he wouldn't need it since he'd been fine over the weekend, but...]
[Well, he was wrong. And now he hasn't slept since Sunday night, because he was too stubborn to ask. So he dials what he's pretty sure is Lust's number, but he's not exactly paying attention.]
Lust, I still can't sleep, I--
[It's safe to say that Al has never heard Envy sound like this. He's not actually crying, but his voice sounds choked enough that he's clearly halfway there. He sounds frustrated with himself and completely exhausted, and then his voice goes very small and bitter.]
[voice | May 20th]
[But now the circus is over. The night is too quiet, and his room especially feels like both the emptiest place in the world and so full of the ghosts of memories that Envy can't stand it. He'd waved off the offers to keep him company, sure he wouldn't need it since he'd been fine over the weekend, but...]
[Well, he was wrong. And now he hasn't slept since Sunday night, because he was too stubborn to ask. So he dials what he's pretty sure is Lust's number, but he's not exactly paying attention.]
Lust, I still can't sleep, I--
[It's safe to say that Al has never heard Envy sound like this. He's not actually crying, but his voice sounds choked enough that he's clearly halfway there. He sounds frustrated with himself and completely exhausted, and then his voice goes very small and bitter.]
I never even deserved him in the first place.